Eda's World

I've done so many things in my life with grim determination. I've faced fears I didn't even know I was laboring under, I've whipped myself up mountains, and climbed out of deep holes. All with a fierce soul. I know I seem dippy and light hearted most times, but this runs completely against my original nature. I was bitter about my life, depressed by the world at large, angry at the limitations of my sex and size(a 300lb woman), oppressed by past mistakes and negative voices in my head, and ignorant of any way to be free of it. When I was 28 I left an abusive marriage. It changed who I was. I refused to suffer a small life lead by fear. I left the only state I'd ever known, and plunged into the cauldron of humanity that is Los Angeles. The past 13 years here have been a revelation of belief for me. When I arrived here, I was washed clean of a past. I was exactly what I decided I would be.  I found a job, my live-in became a spouse, we've been married 10 y...

When I was in Texas, my dad and I had an interesting conversation about Maleficent. I had been dying to see it, and I wanted to take mom. We ended up not going. But I was surprised Dad didn't want to see it. He didn't agree with Hollywood's new take on stories these days. He resented them providing a backstory for evil characters. He maintains there is no justification for evil in mythos. It just is, there are no justifications for evil. It should be vanquished, not understood. I was conflicted with this view. On some level, I agree with him. In horror movies since the 90s, directors wedge backstories in to cast the villain in a sympathetic light, bad childhood etc. Dad says there are plenty of people with awful backstories that manage to lead fulfilliing kind lives, in fact they have been driven by the evil they experience to do good for others. He sees them as excuses not explanations. I see what he was saying. But it was a damn good movie. My friend Mary sent me NYTime...